I got tagged on my instagram account by a friend for a 12wordstory and this is what I came up with:
Those words stand for the so far most important perception of my life: We constantly think about means to get inner peace, happiness, joy, love, maybe even enlightenment without realizing that all the thinking got us in our misery in the first place – and there is no way it will ever get us out. We are not aware and present enough to even realize that our suffering is caused by thoughts, but behind every single emotion stands an (often unconscious) thought, based on an old belief of our mind’s valuation system (according to my understanding love and joy are not emotions, so this doesn’t go for those). A personal example of a situation I got myself into quite often in my past: When I feel hurt and sad because I made an effort for a beloved person and they don’t seem to be really grateful or happy about it, it is my mind telling me that this is not how reality should be; and this imaginary gap between how things are supposed to be and how they really are is what causes my pain. Probably starting with the old belief that people being grateful and appreciating me equals love, my mind pushes me to do things for others in order to get what it thinks augurs happiness. So when those people take the liberty to not react as my mind expected them to, it feels like it is deprived from love and that is the moment the pain and suffering arises. Now what I used to do was trying to think my way out of there, maybe by thinking “okay, that’s it, I’ll never ever make an effort for that person again”, or by trying even harder or trying the same with other people. This is pure madness, isn’t it? Instead of thinking more and more, we should simply let us fall, fall so deep down that we reach the place beyond the thinking mind, the place of our hearts where we can let go of old beliefs and pain and surrender to the present moment. This is how inner peace will arise without any kind of effort. And it goes without saying that I’m not speaking about seeking solutions for math problems when I’m studying for my next exam; this is not an attempt to devalue the thinking mind, which is a brilliant and impressive instrument. It is rather an attempt to re-establish the natural hierarchy with our hearts ruling and our minds serving. Have a blessed wednesday!